From the Heart and Soul

They say that pain dies, it gets less and weak.

But the people are wrong.

It's like a wave of sound, it has it's highs and lows.

It can grow to heights of great anger, sorrow and grief.

Or dive into great lows, where you can experience true happiness without the effect of pain.

But the pain never goes away, not completely.

The pain will come back hard and sometimes stronger.

But I never let it show.

I hide my heart and build a brick wall around it, along with my soul.

Not living in the worl, just seeing it pass by.

Not showing the grief, love, anger and hatred that is there,

but showing a mask, a face that is not true.

I hide in the world with it showing.

But you alone know my face and my feelings / emotions.

You see them everyday as you peer into my soul and heart.

You hurt, love, grieve and hate when I do.

But mostly you hurt because of this.

You remember me full of life and spirit.

The energy that used to be me.

But that changed and the shell appeared,

and you cringe knowing that the life that could have been

and the shell that should not have been.

You know the pain, you feel it too.

You feel your little sister lost in the world,

hiding in the dark corner crying deep in her soul and heart.

And you want in all the world to put your arms around her,

like you used to,

cry with her

sooth her broken heart and soul.

Author : Amber Bailey ©

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